mengetuk kekunci pada papan mata menatap kejap ke depan fikir bagai terhenti sejenak..... pandang ke kanan, kiri, kanan lagi.. tengok ke depan pula.. terus pusing ke belakang tiada apa yang membuka ruang untuk otak berjalan jam terus berdetikwaktu terus berlalu cepat! cepat lah masa... aku mau pulang.... kerana aku BOSAN!!!
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting Could it be that we have been this way before I know you don't think that I am trying I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night That I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I won't live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended I always swore to you I'd never fall apart You always thought that I was stronger I may have failed but I have loved you from the start
Oh, But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night That I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I won't live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find It's impossible So breathe in so deep Breathe me in I'm yours to keep And hold on to your words Cause talk is cheap And remember me tonight When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night That I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I won't live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night That I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I won't live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find You're impossible to find
Abah.. Ringgit berjuta tak akan dapat membayar walau setitik keringatmu mendidik & membesarkan aku Beratus jam waktu tidak bisa menggantikan sedetik masamu yang terbuang melayan rajukku Selaut penawar tidak mungkin mengubati hatimu yang calar kerana kedegilanku Setaman bunga tidak mampu membahagiakanmu seperti mana kau melihat kejayaanku walau kecil Cuma Tiada apa-apa yang ada padaku layak untukku persembahkan sebagai tanda penghargaan untuk segala kasih sayangmu – sejak lahir aku hingga dewasa anakmu ini..
Aku hanya ada janji untuk membahagiakanmu dunia & akhirat Namun janji itu belum mampu aku tepati Belum sempurna ikrar aku.. Aku hanya ada ucapan terima kasih Yang nilainya amat mustahil membalas segala jasamu Meski berjuta kali aku lafazkan.. Inikan pula lafaz terima kasih itu hanya terbenam di dasar hati.. Semakin mustahil jasamu mampu kubalas…
Ku harap pada Dia Agar setiap titik peluhmu dibalas dengan kemanisan Agar setiak detik waktumu mmbesarkan ku dibalas permata berkilau di Jannah Agar calar hatimu terubat dengan air dari Kautsar Agar kekal kebahagianmu dunia akhirat… Kerana aku tidak mungkin mampu membalas segalanya….
• Selamat Hari Bapa untuk Abah… terima kasih atas segalanya. Sayang Abah!!
bila dah lama tak menulis, mula lah rasa susah untuk mula balik. pity this blog.. kejap ada story, kejap diam sepi. before jan- april sem ends, i was thinking of updating this blog but now it is almost the end of semester break. hahahah still no words from me. i have to do something!! so many stories to tell yet too limited time i have.. (i was the one who limiting my own time; busy playing uno cards at DEL..hikhik) cuti semester.. nothing is to be done at the office, kadang-kadang ada meeting, kadang-kadang ade interview, yang banyak lepak sambil main uno & bergosip sedikit sebanyak. hahahaha.. aktiviti harian tu! mujur la one day Intan ajak kitorang pegi dusun durian dia kat Melaka. at least ade la jugak aktiviti nak dibuat. so pagi-pagi sebelum matahari tegak hari selasa sempena birthday Intan yang ke-27 (tua dah ek ko Intan) kitorang satu department gerak ke melaka.Yang bes about the trip was... kitorang x payah buang masa dok ofis doing nothing.along the journey i was dreaming of picking durian at Intan's place tapi bila kitorang sampai, durian sume sudah dikutip oleh Pakcik Tahir. maka impian i nak kutip durian kat dusun berkecai dan i hanya mampu kutip durian dalam bakul kat umah pakcik Tahir saje.huhuhuhu... tapi tak kisah ar.. yang penting comey2 durian tu. a little big bigger than my fist. sedap giler. from pakcik Tahir's place, we stopped by shop houses to buy beras pulut, santan and gula melaka. i cooked pulut and we enjoyed it with santan, gula melaka and of course watak utama pada hari itu.. DURIAN! -pulut durian kelantan style- dah kenyang makan durian, we went to the dusun to see the trees. kut2 la hajat nak kutip durian fresh dari ladang masih boleh tercapai.. luas giler dusun tu. giler kaya Intan kalo dia jual tanah dusun tu.hehehehe... ujung dusun tu ade sungai yang cantek. according to Intan, ada buaya la kot kat sungai tu tp bkn buaya betul.jadi-jadian gitu. menurut hikayat, ada buaya yang lahir kembar dengan manusia kat sungai tu. mujur jugak masa kitorang seronok2 maen air buaya tu x muncul. kalo tak.. mau semua pengsan... penat2 amek gambar & celup2 kaki kat dlm sungai, kitorang balik ar. buat pe nk dok lama2 tepi sungai tu. panas giler! penat lak tu. perut lak kenyang mana larat nk berdiri lama2. hikhik.. (i tujukan untuk diri i sendiri) dh solat zuhur, we moved to Pangkalan Balak, prut lapar, rasa nak sangat makan kat tepi pantai.huhu sedihnye makan x bes pon. waiter plak lemah gemalai, sejuta kali mintak tisu bleh wat derk je.. lempang jgk budak tu kang. sume pakat2 makan mi goreng. aku je wat pilihan bijak makan mi hailam..lps makan tu sempat ar jugak main tepi pantai sambil amek gambar lagi..huhuhu malsa ar nk cakap banyak tapi yang penting lps main air tu kitorang terpaksa ke rumah Nora sebab mak dia dah masak.. bile sampai umah dia.. hambik kau!!!! mi goreng lagi sekali. so kepada semua yang dah telan mi goreng kat gerai adik lembut tu, saat telan mi goreng kat rumah Nora mungkin satu penyeksaan yang sukar digambarkan. mujur ada air stoberi yang sedap untuk tolak mi tu masuk dlm perut. apa pon terima kasih byk2 kat nora & ibunya!
January almost reaches its end. I haven’t wished myself a happy new year. Happy New Year people! Happy New Year to myself. I just reached my 28 this January. A new year really means new to me. Looking at the numbers which I carried each year makes me afraid of myself. I have shorter time to live a best as I could. 28 years.. I am still lacking of too many things. Knowledge… wealth...position… and the item that worries me the most is.. the deficiency of my good deeds to shoulder me in front of my Creator soon. But sometimes I am apt to forget the insufficiency of my good deeds as if I will be living immortal in this globe. If 28 is the number that indicates my end as His vicegerent, I am nothing but a junk. I haven’t pursue my happiness in total in my life how would I’ll be happy in the next world??? I have this question going on in my mind millions times but I did nothing to find the answer. Nothing that I do to seize the happiness in my eternal life……
Oh Allah.. give me strength.. give me wisdom.. give me ways.. to return to You.. peacefully.. meaningfully.. happily… as an obedient vicegerent of Allah..