3 years???

Hoh.. 3 years ago was the last time i updated my post to this humble blog! HOHOHO!!! what did I do? What I have been doing throughout those years? soooooooooooooo many things happened to me! my second child is already 3 years old. Ahah! I might have stopped blogging because I was too busy with my kids and finally I forgot I have a blog to tend.

One more distraction which keeps me away from my blog is obviously FACEBOOK! i wrote so many things on FB hahahaha i should have copied and posted them here. sorry darling Bloggy... will come here more regular from now on...!

Home Sweet Home with lyrics

Home Sweet Home. It is so magnificent to have a place to go to when you are weary and weighed down with loads of tasks at work. A place where you see smiles, a place where you hear laughter, you perceive joy sparkles and there are tears that you can wipe off… you are the King because you have your own rules set up and of course you possess absolute liberty and sovereignty when you are at your own dwelling.



…but if you feel uneasy at your own territory.. and you turn out to be a total stranger at your very own kingdom … the freedom you are supposed to seize and the liberty you should enjoy are taken away from you….you need to sustain yourself from doing things that you normally do…intruders start to take over your position and priority…blocking all the autonomy… where else can you go to feel belonged again…??

me.....

Knowing me…knowing all about me…it won’t be hard to comprehend what is deep inside me. Hahaha my face will tell everything since it does not know how to lie… you’ll see me grin when I am content, you’ll effortlessly see my tears when I am gloomy. If I don’t chat with you, you should know that I am sick of you…the nastiest...if I don’t even look at you or act as if that you are not there…it signifies my hatred  to you so please don’t try to talk to me or just go away…errr but you may try to come back later…

I hate people who make jokes when I am stern, I am sick of repeated questions after I explain over and over again, I dislike listening to overheard stories about me… (hehehe especially when it is a bad one..good things ok laa…..!). I hate hypocrisies, I against people who criticize on other people’s work as if they do better….i hate waiting…don’t make me wait for you or you’ll blight the whole day.

My kids are my soul…My kitchen is my territory (don’t cook, don’t use my kitchen without letting me know)… my bedroom is my Chamber of Secrets, (nobody is welcome to enter my chamber ok!) my belongings belong to only me! I hate sharing. Please ask if you need something, don’t simply take whatever you like. (My most precious belongings are my hubby, Haziq and Hakim. Don’t ever dare to take them away from me. )A green eye person I am… (though it has been ages I didn’t wear green lenses, my eyes are still green..hahahahaha).

 I am grumpy, full of doubts... I’ll remember every words people tell me… so don’t try to say anything bad in front of me because I’ll quote them back one day.. I keep things deep inside me, I share happiness with others but normally keep my sadness to myself. I trust people, but once the trust is flawed, I won’t trust that people till the end of my life. So vindictive I am…

Those make appear so rough that no one will want to be my buddy…wrong!!! I am good, I’ll be good to people who are good to me. So if you need help, I’ll try to help as best as I could. I am sensitive, don’t dare to bleed my heart…hahaha no worry… you just need to follow my rules… then I’ll be good to you...

nak balik!

mengetuk kekunci pada papan
mata menatap kejap ke depan
fikir bagai terhenti sejenak.....
pandang ke kanan, kiri, kanan lagi..
tengok ke depan pula..
terus pusing ke belakang
tiada apa yang membuka ruang untuk otak berjalan
jam terus berdetik waktu
terus berlalu
cepat! cepat lah masa...
aku mau pulang....
kerana aku
BOSAN!!!



huhuhu.. lambatnye 5.30!

FALL FOR YOU

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABAH

Happy 57th birthday to beloved Abah

sukan??!!

banner rumah biru yang comey.. hehehehe

get ready for lambung kasih..muahahahha

ahli2 rumah biru

sapphire blue spyro!

gile luas langkah..

hari sukan & sukaneka Kolej UNIKOP..

hahahaha... mcm kelakar la plak bile ingat2 balik...

Semoga Abah Mendengar

Semoga Abah Mendengar…. (Fathers’ Day 09)


Abah..
Ringgit berjuta tak akan dapat membayar walau setitik keringatmu mendidik & membesarkan aku
Beratus jam waktu tidak bisa menggantikan sedetik masamu yang terbuang melayan rajukku
Selaut penawar tidak mungkin mengubati hatimu yang calar kerana kedegilanku
Setaman bunga tidak mampu membahagiakanmu seperti mana kau melihat kejayaanku walau kecil Cuma
Tiada apa-apa yang ada padaku layak untukku persembahkan sebagai tanda penghargaan untuk segala kasih sayangmu – sejak lahir aku hingga dewasa anakmu ini..

Aku hanya ada janji untuk membahagiakanmu dunia & akhirat
Namun janji itu belum mampu aku tepati
Belum sempurna ikrar aku..
Aku hanya ada ucapan terima kasih
Yang nilainya amat mustahil membalas segala jasamu
Meski berjuta kali aku lafazkan..
Inikan pula lafaz terima kasih itu hanya terbenam di dasar hati..
Semakin mustahil jasamu mampu kubalas…

Ku harap pada Dia
Agar setiap titik peluhmu dibalas dengan kemanisan
Agar setiak detik waktumu mmbesarkan ku dibalas permata berkilau di Jannah
Agar calar hatimu terubat dengan air dari Kautsar
Agar kekal kebahagianmu dunia akhirat…
Kerana aku tidak mungkin mampu membalas segalanya….



• Selamat Hari Bapa untuk Abah… terima kasih atas segalanya. Sayang Abah!!

durian di melaka

bila dah lama tak menulis, mula lah rasa susah untuk mula balik. pity this blog.. kejap ada story, kejap diam sepi. before jan- april sem ends, i was thinking of updating this blog but now it is almost the end of semester break. hahahah still no words from me. i have to do something!! so many stories to tell yet too limited time i have.. (i was the one who limiting my own time; busy playing uno cards at DEL..hikhik)

cuti semester.. nothing is to be done at the office, kadang-kadang ada meeting, kadang-kadang ade interview, yang banyak lepak sambil main uno & bergosip sedikit sebanyak. hahahaha.. aktiviti harian tu! mujur la one day Intan ajak kitorang pegi dusun durian dia kat Melaka. at least ade la jugak aktiviti nak dibuat. so pagi-pagi sebelum matahari tegak hari selasa sempena birthday Intan yang ke-27 (tua dah ek ko Intan) kitorang satu department gerak ke melaka.Yang bes about the trip was... kitorang x payah buang masa dok ofis doing nothing.along the journey i was dreaming of picking durian at Intan's place tapi bila kitorang sampai, durian sume sudah dikutip oleh Pakcik Tahir. maka impian i nak kutip durian kat dusun berkecai dan i hanya mampu kutip durian dalam bakul kat umah pakcik Tahir saje.huhuhuhu...
tapi tak kisah ar.. yang penting comey2 durian tu. a little big bigger than my fist. sedap giler. from pakcik Tahir's place, we stopped by shop houses to buy beras pulut, santan and gula melaka. i cooked pulut and we enjoyed it with santan, gula melaka and of course watak utama pada hari itu.. DURIAN! -pulut durian kelantan style-

dah kenyang makan durian, we went to the dusun to see the trees. kut2 la hajat nak kutip durian fresh dari ladang masih boleh tercapai.. luas giler dusun tu. giler kaya Intan kalo dia jual tanah dusun tu.hehehehe... ujung dusun tu ade sungai yang cantek. according to Intan, ada buaya la kot kat sungai tu tp bkn buaya betul.jadi-jadian gitu. menurut hikayat, ada buaya yang lahir kembar dengan manusia kat sungai tu. mujur jugak masa kitorang seronok2 maen air buaya tu x muncul. kalo tak.. mau semua pengsan... penat2 amek gambar & celup2 kaki kat dlm sungai, kitorang balik ar. buat pe nk dok lama2 tepi sungai tu. panas giler! penat lak tu. perut lak kenyang mana larat nk berdiri lama2. hikhik.. (i tujukan untuk diri i sendiri)

dh solat zuhur, we moved to Pangkalan Balak, prut lapar, rasa nak sangat makan kat tepi pantai.huhu sedihnye makan x bes pon. waiter plak lemah gemalai, sejuta kali mintak tisu bleh wat derk je.. lempang jgk budak tu kang. sume pakat2 makan mi goreng. aku je wat pilihan bijak makan mi hailam..lps makan tu sempat ar jugak main tepi pantai sambil amek gambar lagi..huhuhu malsa ar nk cakap banyak tapi yang penting lps main air tu kitorang terpaksa ke rumah Nora sebab mak dia dah masak.. bile sampai umah dia.. hambik kau!!!! mi goreng lagi sekali. so kepada semua yang dah telan mi goreng kat gerai adik lembut tu, saat telan mi goreng kat rumah Nora mungkin satu penyeksaan yang sukar digambarkan. mujur ada air stoberi yang sedap untuk tolak mi tu masuk dlm perut. apa pon terima kasih byk2 kat nora & ibunya!