Sunday, January 25, 2009

2009... so fast!

January almost reaches its end. I haven’t wished myself a happy new year. Happy New Year people! Happy New Year to myself. I just reached my 28 this January. A new year really means new to me. Looking at the numbers which I carried each year makes me afraid of myself. I have shorter time to live a best as I could. 28 years.. I am still lacking of too many things. Knowledge… wealth...position… and the item that worries me the most is.. the deficiency of my good deeds to shoulder me in front of my Creator soon. But sometimes I am apt to forget the insufficiency of my good deeds as if I will be living immortal in this globe. If 28 is the number that indicates my end as His vicegerent, I am nothing but a junk. I haven’t pursue my happiness in total in my life how would I’ll be happy in the next world??? I have this question going on in my mind millions times but I did nothing to find the answer. Nothing that I do to seize the happiness in my eternal life……

Oh Allah..
give me strength..
give me wisdom.. give me ways..
to return to You..
peacefully..
meaningfully..
happily…
as an obedient vicegerent of Allah..